Searing, throbbing pain

I think right now I'm going through caffeine withdrawal. I usually have tons at once (redbulls upon redbulls, espresso laden coffee, the like) and then it's like 9 PM and sometimes I will go to bed, but tonight is different. I am thoroughly exhausted. My apartment like 97.5% done. I still have to vacuum under the dining room table when they move it and under my desk. Also I have to vacuum under where the boxes are when those are moved. I have to move my sheets from under the bed and take the cleaning supplies out from under the sink. But after that, I swear. It's all packed. *I hope*. Anyway, all my muscles ache so bad, and I'm going to bed. Wish me luck, tomorrow is another day and another life.

ok, now Im frightened

One day left.

Screams.

Runs away.

keepin' it organized {{another to do list}}

Tomorrow -
Pack up Obama orders, solid scent, try me plumpers

Go to Mom's

Vacuum

Pack up any remaining stuff

Oh my

So, tomorrow is Tuesday! Ahhh. I'm catching up with Hills episodes. I totally forgot the show was even on. It's seriously the most vapid show ever, and yet.. and yet, I love it. Anywho. The apartment looks pretty packed up, I feel like I need things to be removed more to figure out what else needs to be gone. There's just too much everywhere, too many boxes. One more day to go and then at noon the movers are coming. Can't wait to wash this place outta my hair.

Saturday so far - me blathering on about my to-dos

So I made the vegan salve for a customer, now I have to print out labels for that and for a lip plumper and minerals.

After that, I'm going to head to the post office with my Mom.

Pack more, clean

Find out what bills I have to pay

You know: Saturday = mundane, random sh*t.

Over and underwhelmed all at the same time

SO much packing to do. Too little energy and time! Moving in 4 days. Ahhhhh.

Disappointment in Authority

The sun over there is setting bright vermillion
You forgot about me and tried to make it my fault, that was something I could foresee on
Our last time seeing eachother spewed down the toilet
Didn't take much for you to spoil it
No, she can't drive me on Thursday, and I'm sorry to say:
"Even though you couldn't see me - today was supposed to be my last day"
You probably should have made her come another day, not me, but don't take responsibility
What else is new?
Blame the victim; blame me, that's who
Saying goodbye in a cellphone voicemail
Here's me hoping I can hold onto the rail

mmmm Sundays are Fundays lol

Mah to-do list today~

Have muchos coffee + red bull
Put together wholesale stuff + alchemy, samples
Pack (ahh I only have like 10 days before I leave Moronic-Malden lol)
Weekend orders

Coffee ice cream + 2:08 AM = bliss

OK - so for a long time there I was a Ben and Jerry's & Haagen Daz ONLY type of girl. Nothing else would get in mah belly, ice cream-wise, that is.. anyway! The last time I went up to VT to look at apartments, after an amazing dinner made by Nonny Green, they whipped out the Edy's Double Churned Coffee Light Ice Cream. Yea, that's right. I sound like a commercial lol, but SERIOUSLY --it is JUST as good as my new fave brands and lately, it's all I've craved. OMG, try it.

Been days

It's been days, nothing coming in - it brings me down
And I haven't heard from you
You're another person that I don't matter to

But trust me, I won't say a word
And probability will ensure you will never know
i'm more than one note, lines had been blurred

Every time I came out there, I hoped to be kissed
Who knows, maybe I hallucinated a connection
And now you're engaged in a lovely, new tryst

A part of me knows you are very deserving
Another part wishes that it had been switched
Yet another is in the car, drunk, swerving

I won't forget your face or your intelligence
I definitely feel a loss for you
If I could, I would cry tears in black tints

3 AM

Today was pure torture. I am really wishing I can get to bed before 3-something today blahhhh

Tears

The majority fell wet and burning
On my left cheek
Feeling like I'm missing out

Mmm Alejandro Sanz fetish

Sometimes I forget I'm human
then something makes me seize
it makes me seethe
el pascion
seeing you two together
while you're cutting an onion
only you two could make that remotely sexy
that knife you're clutching
that sweet stab
I wish I was there
with Alejandro Sanz
Jump into my screen
right into that scene
You know what I'm talking about?
La Tortura
A video that is just so sexual that you remember
Your first love
was a Colombian just like Shakira
Makes you want to cry
Though it was never perfect, you were wide open then

And that's why you never called

It has certainly been awhile
Since our last correspondence
I had a whiff of what could be
And then nothing
Thought I'd put the bait back out there
I'm moving and all..
I emailed you
HEADER: "It's been forever.."
BODY: "since we've spoke"
You said you bought a home
That was no reason though to leave me alone
I knew you finally found one
A girl
It pains me to know
that while I was here: available, ready
you passed me by
And that's why you never called
Parting IS such sweet sorrow